Life Is Woooooonderful :-D

Wow, REEEEEEAAAALLLY long time since my last update...no one really usues xanga that much anymore anyway...I do update frequently on myspace, but, eh, you know...

Anyway, update on my life:

I'm in a wonderful realtionship with a gorgeous man who I love to death...and before you assume, no, it's not Jeff...More than likely you don't know this man that I adore, sooooooo I wont bore you too much with details...Just know that he's made me the happiest girl on earth ...

Taking a couple online courses right now, trying to get a few GEC's outta the way...The more I take now, the less I have to take later, right?

Work's still ok, i suppose...

Getting back into my old shape (i.e. tan, awesome abs, and an ass) so I can start accepting offers for shoots again (with the way I look right now, I don't think it'd be fair to the photographer...)

I'm rarely in Fairmont anymore, and I'm quite content with that considering I have all the miserable, bitter people that live here...but I could write an entire post dedicated to that...buuuuut Steve's saving me from Fairmont, and WV for that matter, so it's ok <3

*Sigh* I'm just so unbelieveably happy right now...Life rocks

Hey all...

Wow...I really need to start studying for my chem exam...I can't help it...It's just sooooo boring...plus I have alot on my mind....

School.

Work.

My Social Life.

Blah...

I can't wait till the beach..I'm so sick of Fairmont and all the ppl in it...I just want to get away from everyone...

Blah...I'm too stressed...I need some relaxation...hell, I need a stiff drink....

*Whit*

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

Hey everyone...

Just got done working a 12 hour shift...not too bad...a little crazy here and there, but nothing awesomly horrible...

Had alot on my mind...Came home and it all hit me right between the eyes...Needless to say, my day just plumeted right there...but maybe it's for the best? Yea, whatever.

Talked to Jason and Dennis (oh god, those 2 of all the people) tonight at work about the shit that's been upsetting me...Jason wasn't too pleased by it, and Dennis...well, he just decided to tease me about it all night and make me feel better...Anyway, they told me what they thought about it and gave me some advice on it...I just brushed it off, thinking, I know what I'm doing...it'll all be ok now...I thought it was ok last night...It's amazing how much can be shoved in your face...Now I just feel stupid...

The only bright spots were the WVU winning and UNC losing...

I need to get trashed.

Go back to school tomorrow...Joy. atleast I'll be away from my problems... For a little while anyway...

I need to try and sleep...Sleep...Hah...But I'll try...that's all I 'll promise...

*Whit*

Yesterday the odds were stacked
In favor of my expectations
Flyin' above the rest
Never fallin' from the nest
Tuesday came and went and now
I'm in a little situation
Maybe it's for the best
I can live alone, I guess
Maybe I can stand alone
Maybe I'm strong as stone
Even though the bird has flown
Maybe he'll fly on home

Currently Listening Feels Like Today By Rascal Flatts see related

- Love Another Day

"I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me"

Hey...

Have you ever had one of those days that just plain out eats shit? Yea, that's my day....I just don't know what to do w/ myself anymore...It just feels like no one knows what I'm feeling...It's like it's all a bad dream...

I feel like my whole world's crashing down around me and no one seems to notice...or care. Or maybe the whole world's just moving so fast around me that no one notices anymore. I wish there was a way to make it stop, to make time just stand still...To make everything right again.

I'm sick of selfish attitudes...I just want to get away from everything.

I wanna get higher than a kite or so trashed that I can't even remember my own name. I just want to forget...Why is it so easy for some people to do, and for others, remembering is the easiest?

I'm sick of change. Change can fucking bite my ass.

I'm sick of being so fucking lonely that it physically hurts. Like, I gave up so many of my friends for one person, and yet one person can give me up for a gay man, a dwarf, and a druggie. Wow, if that won't kill your fucking self-esteem...

Photoshoot coming up....dunno if I can do it...Then again, depression yields some of the greatest art...

I'm tired.....going to bed.

Take Home Message: Fuck You All You Selfish Fucking Pricks.

"It's 3 AM and you're still wide awake
Wondering how much more your broken heart can take
All he left you with was shattered dreams
I know it's hard to see right now, it's not as bad as it seems"

Currently Listening Telegraph By Drake Bell see related

- Somehow

"She falls to her knees
Screaming God please
Make something of me
Cause I never wanted anything like what I wanna be right now
An angel again
An angel again somehow"

Hey everyone...

    Ok, waaaaaaay long time with no updatage, eh? Anywho...Spring Break's offically here....and  so far? It blows...like, hardcore style.....

   I don't wanna talk about it really... Let's just say that I REALLY dispise Jeff's friend's right now... I dunno...It just seems like everything was perfect...and I had a lot of shit to look forward to...and now....yea, well, I don't know what to think anymore...I just need some reassurance...I just need to be held onto...I just want some comfort right now...and the one person I need doesn't want to hear me....

Take Home Message: Life blows harder than Jenna Jameson.